Before the Morning

Sunday and Monday were some challenging days with my symptoms. If I didn't get the Mestinon every 4 hours on the dot, my symptoms would flame out of control. I would lose my speech, my ability to chew and swallow and I could not lift my arms, legs or head. It was frustrating to me. I tried to be patient and understanding with the nurses. I really missed Gina who was off that weekend. They were very inconsistent with bringing me my meds on time. I asked for them to be brought to me but sometimes I had to wait for over an hour. By then, I could not even swallow the pill again. It was too late.

Dr. K arrived on Monday to give me the results of the CAT scan. There was a tumor on my thymus gland. He was surprised. The tumor and the thymus would have to be removed and he wanted me to see a surgeon. Another referral to another doctor. There was only one group of cardiothoracic surgeons. He would refer someone from the group to see me. I needed a surgery called a thymectomy. Dr. M came in later in the afternoon. I talked with him about the Mestinon schedule. MG needed to be fed consistently and regularly. Talk about throwing a hissy fit! MG was having a big one! Dr. M was great! He listened to me with his eyes. He wrote specific orders to have the Mestinon administered every 4 hours. I felt like a valuable person with Dr. M. He treated me as a person not just a patient. God blessed me with 2 fantastic doctors. I believed that He would steer the right surgeon to me, also. It was another opportunity to exercise my faith muscle.

Before the Morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.

and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture