Perspective

Like I said yesterday, perspective is an interesting concept to me. I thought for a long time (actually still do think it at my low points) that having MG come to live with me was a terrible thing. Don't get me wrong, there are lots of challenges in living with MG. Of course there are the physical challenges...can't breathe, can't swallow, can't chew, jerky vision, extreme fatigue, and muscle weakness. Then there are the emotional challenges...grief, loss, sadness, anger, and a multitude of others. One day not many months after my diagnosis, Todd and I were driving to the doctor. It was during this time that I was in and out of the hospital a lot and could not drive. Todd was my caregiver. As he drove me to another appointment, he talked about my new diagnosis. He made a statement that helped me put some things in perspective. He said that he could see the blessings that were coming from my diagnosis. He talked about how much he was enjoying the time that we spent together. He said that it felt good to him that he was able to help me and that he felt like he was able to pay me back for all of the years that I took care of him. It is all perspective.

It would be fine with me if I were totally cured of MG. I know that God can do that. But, I think that God is using my illness to help my faith grow. Faith is all I have left. Relying on Him is all I have. It is all perspective.

“But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3: 13-14