Turn the Corner

MG was a real pill during the first year he came to live with me. My brain was foggy, my body was weak and my strength was none existent. I could not breathe. Lying down to sleep was suffocating. I remember lying in the bed struggling with every single breath and wondering if this was my last breath. Dr. K was working to get my treatment figured out during the year. I was taking lots of steroids , IVIG, plasmaphresis and mestinon. I was still looking for the proverbial "corner" that Dr. K kept saying I was going to turn. In October, 2004, a friend gave me some lecithin. It is a natural food. I began to take it every morning. The first of November I began to have people comment that I looked better. I remember saying to Todd that I thought I was feeling better. Many more comments that I sounded better or I looked better came my way for the next couple of weeks. During the second week of December, 2004 I knew that I had turned the corner. Dr. K was right. When I turned the corner I knew it. I could feel it. I saw Dr. K that week. I was so excited to go see him because I knew that I had turned the corner and could not wait for him to see me. When he opened the exam room door, he took one look at me and said "you turned the corner". I remember the smile that I had and the tears that came to my eyes. It was such a profound feeling. I think it was accomplishment. I worked so hard to get better. There were many down times during that first year. It felt good that my faith had sustained me and that I turned the corner.

There have been many corners in my life with MG. The corners have been different kinds of challenges that I know God is using to help me be the person that He would have me to be. I am learning to rely on Him and to enjoy even the small things in life that at one time I might have taken for granted. I have found myself singing an old hymn today.

"My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
but wholly lean on Jesus' name.

On Christ the solid rock I stand,
all other ground is sinking sand;
all other ground is sinking sand."