Healing

Yesterday I drove the 30 miles to the dealership to pick up my car. I didn't drive it home. It is officially really sick. That is a post for tomorrow perhaps. I met with the man who sold my car to me while I was there. I was having some trouble with my breathing today. Some of it was doing a lot (for me) of walking and some of it was the stress I was feeling over my sick car. Anyway, I shared with him that I have a neuromuscular autoimmune disorder called myasthenia gravis. He told me that I should stop saying that I have MG because God will not heal me unless I have faith and claim it. He said that if I truly have faith and believe it then God promises to heal me totally. So, I must stop saying that I have MG, claim that He will heal me and if I have enough faith then I will be healed. It is a conversation that I have thought about a lot. I told him that I totally believe that God does perform miracles and that He can heal me in an instant. I asked him how he thinks praying for healing impacted Paul. After all, Paul prayed for his thorn to be removed from him but Paul was not healed. Paul says he learned to be content with whatever circumstances. It seemed like I was being told that I have MG because I don't have enough faith. I know that God has used MG to teach me so many lessons. I don't feel like I am being punished by God because I have MG. I know that I am loved and a Child of God. As I reflect on the total conversation, I pray that I said what God would have me say and that I acted the way that God would have me to act.