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Aug 17, 2010

Fire Breathing

One of my biggest challenges when MG is having a temper tantrum occurs when he thinks that I should breath fire, too. It seems it is not good enough for just one fire breather. So, MG will stand on my chest, flap his heavy wings and stomp up and down. It is literally breath-taking and not in the "WOW! Isn't that sunset breath-taking?"  kind of way. This has been my experience for about 3 weeks now. MG is a constant heaviness in my chest. I should not even consider going to the mailbox or sitting on the back porch to watch my dogs. He reminds me that he is pitching a hissy fit. 

Those of you who know me IRL (in real life---I am becoming so impressed with what I am learning) know that I am definitely an extrovert. My batteries get charged from being around people and talking! MG makes me chose between talking and breathing because doing both at the same time is completely out of the question. How dare I think of talking to a friend or playing with Lboy!?!? MG demands my complete attention. Here I sit at home. Talking is exhausting and trying to hold my head up is exhausting. Just trying to be around others sounds exhausting. I feel exhausted.

Today I remember that God promises me that when I walk through the fire, I will not be burned, the flames will not consume me. “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2 It reminds me that God is really in control not MG. MG can pitch all the hissy fits he wants but he will not be in control of my life.

4 comments:

  1. I am really glad to hear that you have the Lord to guide you through these rough times for you. Through him we can overcome so much! I hope you start feeling better soon!

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  2. Good for you! I love your spunk. Sounds like we are a lot alike, MG-wise. I, too, get "charged" from being with and talking to people, even though it's exhausting. In the 10 years that this disease has been debilitating 70% of the time, I have been homebound way more than I care to. It gets lonely and isolating.

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  3. Oh, I put your button on my blog!

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