Grief

I shared yesterday that I miss my old life. I miss walking, running and lifting weights. I miss having Energizer Bunny energy and going from 0 - 60 in 10 seconds. Part of the grief process is accepting and moving on. I truly think I have accepted my new life and the changes that it has brought. Now I wonder what is going on with me!!?? When I feel so physically exhausted it is hard for me to keep my emotions up, too. Today, I am feeling anger and denial. Anger because there are so many things that I want to do. I miss my old job. I miss the interaction that I had each day and the belief that I was doing what God wanted for me to do with my life. Why am I downcast? Am I where God wants me to be? Am I doing what God wants for me to do?

"Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my help and my God. By day the Lord commands his steadfast love, and at night his son is with me, a prayer to the God of my life." Psalm 42: 5,8