Optical Illusions Part I

Sometimes things are not always what they seem. MG has definitely taught me that. Before I was diagnosed, I had some interesting experiences just trying to understand what was happening to me. I told my doctor for several months that "something" was wrong with me. It was difficult to explain the extreme fatigue that I was feeling and the heaviness in my chest. I told him several times that it felt as if my insides were boiling. My doctor was convinced that it had to be depression. So, he treated me with several different kinds of anti-depressants. I tried one after one for months with no change in any of my symptoms.

On the Saturday after Thanksgiving in 2003, I began to get ready for the day. Todd was home from the university for the weekend and was at work. I planned to spend the day cleaning and cooking to help him be ready to go back to school the next day. I took a shower and brushed my teeth. I could not swish the toothpaste water in my mouth. That was such a strange feeling. The water literally dribbled out of my mouth and down the side of my face. OK! THIS IS WEIRD! Little things continued to happen the rest of the day. I stumbled a lot and could not hold on to my tea glass. Todd and I laughed at my clumsiness that night. I attributed it all to being tired and getting old. Todd left to go back to the university the next afternoon and by that night, I was beginning to lose my speech. I sounded terrible. My speech was garbled and difficult to understand. I also realized that I was unable to swallow food or drink and that it was getting worse. I looked fine on the outside but something was happening to me. I don't remember being scared at all. I just remember thinking this is weird! Things are not what they seem. ......to be continued

“The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." I Samuel 16:7