Turn the Corner

Have you ever driven in a very heavy fog? It is impossible to see. Sometimes there is a shadow of something or you can sense that something is there but you can't see it. My brain was in a heavy fog for an entire year. The best way I can describe it is to compare it to driving in a fog. I knew that there were memories out there. I knew that I had book knowledge. I knew that I recognized people, things and events but I difficulty accessing things. It was covered by a heavy fog. When I reflect on that year now, I think my body and my brain were in survival mode. All of my resources--emotional, physical and spiritual were working to keep me alive. Dr. K continued to encourage me and tell me that you will "turn the corner". I saw Dr. K every couple of weeks for months. We were trying different treatments to determine what would be the best help for me. I was doing plasmaphresis and IVIG. I was trying different kinds of natural foods and supplements. I wanted to turn that corner! During one visit to Dr. K I was looking forward to showing him my progress. He was very kind and continued to rate my strength. I remember looking at him with tears in my eyes and asking him if I had turned the corner. In his kind way he told me that when I turned the corner that I would know it. He said it was difficult for him to explain how I would know but that he could assure me I would know. With huge crocodile tears I remember asking him if I could even SEE the corner. The waiting was a test.  

"Jesus is “‘the stone you builders rejected, which has become the cornerstone.' " Acts 4:11